Almost ready for my new adventure...

Ten more days to go before I kiss my Belgian life goodbye and welcome in a brand new adventure in Vancouver. The questions I’m asked on a daily basis now are “When are you leaving?” and “What are you going to do there?”. The first question is clearly answered, the second one comes with an “I have no idea”.  I really don’t. There’s a vague 'plan B’, but ‘plan A’ is to watch this whole adventure unfold before my eyes, one moment at the time. That’s the life I’m signing up for, that’s the life I choose to live.  And the thing about ‘plan A’ is that it doesn’t come with a sneakpreview.

What I do know is that I fell in love with Vancouver when I was there in August.
I’ve experienced three weeks of ongoing synchronicities that blew my mind away, heartfelt conversations that awakened new pieces within myself and a deep knowing that I wanted to live there for at least a while.
Those three things made my heart sing a melody that I recognized as ‘mine’.
It was the frequency of ‘Home’ and I just couldn’t resist…
So I took the decision to wrap up my Belgian life and to jump into the complete unknowing, giving my whole Self a few months to grow into that idea, while letting go of all the imagined anchors I was still firmly holding on to.
Those who know me well have experienced me being ridiculously excited about many new ideas and plans, but most of them evaporated just as quickly, while I was growing from one version of myself into  the next. Nonetheless… when I brought ‘Vancouver’ to the table, they all knew I was serious.
And they all came on board with me, bringing forth a force I’ve seldom witnessed.
I was blown away by what people do for one another when ‘love’ is what drives them.
Thank you so much, all of you. Both the loved ones in Belgium as the cheerleaders all around the world. A big heartfelt ‘thank you’! I feel truly blessed!

The time has come to end this Belgian chapter, for now at least. And to be honest, this is one of the most uncomfortable times in my life.  When people ask me how I am, I quite often reply  that I don’t know. I literally don’t. There’s so many feelings at the same time that I often can’t tell which one is dominating. 
My heart has been bleeding a little with every ‘goodbye’ that has been experienced so far and I assume it’s not going to get easier. The last ones in line are the toughest ones for me. 
So yeah, there will be tears. Lots and lots of them! J

This is a time for me in which I’m very focused on going really slowly and feeling deeply into what I want to do next. I do realize that I’m disappointing quite a few people along the road by forgetting to call you back and by saying ‘no thank you’ to many wonderful invitations.  It doesn’t mean that I don’t love you. Not even by far. It only means that I’m getting a fast course in listening very closely to what my heart wants to do next. And yes, I'm skipping a few goodbyes, that simply feels like the easiest way for me to move forward.  

I don’t make any promises to anyone about keeping in touch.
There might be times in which I write you right back and there might come times in which I keep you waiting. I tend to get mesmerized easily by the life that is right in front of me.
I can promise though that I will love you from a distance. You can come as you are and be as you wish, I will love you still the same.
And as ‘writing’ is one of the things I love the most, I’ll probably write a few blog entries along the way.

Maybe even a lot. We'll see. J

I love you,

Kristien